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Salam its the 26th days of ramadhan month, i am writing this blog juz want to jot down some memories that had happened to me yesterday and i will continue to drag the stories that happen to me today. Well i am so lucky and happy as being the chosen one to go for a short interview thru the radio station. it was rather a big shocked news the first time i received the news from my colleagues. the first time experience was rather cool though.cant believe that i am actually doing it. 

Second thing that makes me doubles up happy is tat my book is coming up! :)

wat if i dont wanna face 2mrw

rain drops keep falling on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

praying time

im on my way for tarawih + solat hajat for pmr, spm n stpm students. it wil start at 6 now still have few more minutes before i drive to my school. alhamdullillah i have received good news about my future, i cant wait to be one of the permanent employees soon. school are pretty much challenging to me lately especially i have difficulties in understanding, spending enuff time to do all the preparations. somehow i am trying my best though at times i admit i am not doing my verybest out of it..but each and everyday i pray to God that He will help me out to do things...insyaALLAH i believe I must double up my efforts as to let  the flow of my teachings will be much more smoother..watever it is i hope Allah will forgive me especially in every wrongs i do from the day i was born til now.amin.thats all from me.gotta catch the school in a bit.wasalam xoxoxo

2 in 1:Happy + Sad

i am so happy coz finally i've got the opportunity to look into his eyes tat i adore so much. he was a shy guy indeed.perhaps i was overjoyed as if god listen to me.everytime i wish if only he walks pass me by..then without expecting at all. he walks then he talked to me..i really like to see him again and again he is such an inspiration for me to work imagine how lonely i am without anyone beside me. yeah AR u r such a lovely guy.

Sad, G.s saddened me. i dislike the fact tat he had condemned everyone who wears jilbab n said everygal who wears it doesnt deserve to wear it. juz want him to let him know we r human too.doesnt mean we wear it and we are free from doing sins..that is such a shallow minded of him..i am very much upset of wat he had said.ok like wat i have write on my blog sincerely me as a human being..normal being..but little that i want to act beyond the line that God has put as the guide of muslims.. i wear it coz i know Allah ask me to wear it, n i will limit everything i do in a way tat i must control myself from doing many social things that of coz against my religion. i know wat i want to do, apart from being like a typical human..i wil do like other humans do.but not to the extend it is against my religion tat's it..

hmmm...mix feeling of mine ...........

i sincerely think i become someone "cold" now..i dont like to talk to anyone like before..i rather live my own life.it is juz tat i think i want to be all alone..wat i want now is only GOD, my family and few friends only..sorry peeps whoever think i act so differently coz tats wat i am..blame me for being "cold".. well everything has got its reason..i turned to be cold because of something that needless for me to explain :)

ignorance is a bliss...mind u!

its near to ramadhan..i still remember last year he used to be my loyal companion on killing da time of breaking the fast..now that i missed him so dearly and he is not around.how i wish i can get rid of him..but i simply cant. i will try my best to ignore him.yeah i am so hurt now.i really am.....whenever i miss him is it going to be a worth effort or juz a waste of junk. pitied myself for slaving my heart for someone like him. gudnite ceng bla bla2...crazy mode..sebelll banget! :(

today im listening to tilawah alquran thru utube..i felt deeply connected and near to God which makes my tears fall down..i had inner peace each time i hear surah Al-Quran.by listening to other ppl's reciting it makes me even humble, i stil remember when the moments i spent my time to join usrah in matrics i am one of the ahli surau..i love it so much..thank Allah of choosing me to get thru it..i know i am not perfect but i wil try my best to become someone better for U my dearest ALLAH, the most GRACIOUS AND MERCIFUL :)  subhanallah, alhamdulillah wala illah haillah lallah ALLAHU AKBAR !! LOVE U ALLAH..TIL MY SOUL APART FROM MY BODY..I WILL OWEZ LOVE YOU!AMIN YA ALLAH :)