Dear God

I am so deeply sad n heart broken again after receiving news about the current test i didnt manage to attend.. i try to hide this feelings anyway..why is it so hard for me to get wat i want..if it is so hard, i better let loose of everything i want..instead i juz carried on aimlessly..say no to dreamz, hopes,and everything..i am not a loser who always hope miracles to come..i had strive so hard to make my dreamz come true.but it is obviously not the same way how God's plan for me..for god sake, maybe i am one of those who being test by God again n again. i dont want to think n make plans anymore about my life coz its totally upside down now..wat for u plan..better go with the flow..as ur heart stil beating juz carried on..lately i juz posted those times tat i am deeply hurt, pissed off coz that's how life treats me..wat else can i expect..i am juz an ordinary person, not a perfect one, so unlucky but grateful enuff of wat i had..i juz write this post for the purpose of reminding me tat my life is not entirely happy go lucky.there's a rocky journey, not as smooth as the river flows, please grey sky i juz need u to go away from me. i juz wish for the great blue sky and together with the sunshine to rise and shine..god please lifts the frown, give me something to make me happy at least for a while :(

rest in peace good memories.....

I've deleted his number and put all the memories in a trash bin....lets deal with a new life...n please dont asked me when things arent the same anymore...enuff is enuff..i could no longer bear all of it..hope u happy with ur own life and mine too..we r totally not in the same path now..gbu...rip :(

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